I received my acceptance packet from yellowstone today for the months of September and October. I'm not sure I'll accept as I'd much rather work in the summer of 2012.
I still haven't the courage to tell my parents of what I intend/hope to do this coming year. I am actively researching the possibilities and I've found exactly what I'd like to fill my time. I feel my insides knotting up when I even think of bringing it up.
I'm not sure what I want for myself. What I want for my future. My nature is one rooted in wanderlust, in simplicity, in opposing conventionalism. And I think that a year off would help me unearth my soul, which as of late has been buried under a myriad of expectations, of worries, of dreams that are not my own. A year off would help me become acquainted with the person I know I am, the person that I am becoming.
This is something I desperately need. I'm not sure my parents will agree.

i want a yellowstone summer. a sunburnt face. i want the summer to stretch out in front of me. full of possibilities. to dip my bare feet in cool, shallow rivers. to breathe the fresh air. to live. and to be free.

i am going home tomorrow.

on another note.

if i ever get a tattoo, itll be of an acacia tree. on my back - upper right. perhaps the exact image would be the picture on my pickwick honey rooibos tea packet or the still from the lion king.
why? because trees symbolize change, steadfastness, loss, recovery, growth and the acacia is a beautiful tree.

i forgot to mention, im dying to do the mont blanc circuit trek. dying.

boombox man is alive. hurrah.
do you believe in miracles?!