so happy right now... that i had forgotten until this moment that im turning 21 in ten minutes. and that is what great friends and family will do.

Dinde, an Indian Turkey

Tomorrow: family and friends are coming in for Thanksgiving Dinner at our home.

My mom and I are making cheese scones, pumpkin bread, and a pomegranate-apple-walnut salad among all the other staples.

Denise - my best friend since I was four - and Sam, my brother's friend, drove all the way from Massachusetts. It's been so nice having them here.

Lately, I've been feeling like things are falling into place - like things will get better. Life has been good these past days and I feel calm.

I'll be 21 this Saturday - we;ll see how things go from there.

today is a new day.

watching parks and recreation while drinking a cold glass of 1% organic milk. life doesn't get better than this :)

today was not the best day.

the little things that frustrate me

have the greatest pull on my feelings

the smallest victories elate me

and the tiniest of defeats drag me so deep,

that i feel water filling my lungs,

i feel the waves dragging me to the deep.

if i were to tell you of the latest defeat that has left me feeling shattered,

you would laugh,

because even i can tell that it is so insignificant.

and yet, i have no control over how i feel.

and that is a terrible way to live. 

progression

it is truly a sad day when football takes precedence over rape.

i've been inspired by lizzie to start knitting again ~ i think it has been seven years. i'd like to make something simple for now.

i'm in the process of decorating the house for christmas.

i feel a strange mix of certainty and uncertainty. like i know my future is set and also that i don't know in which way.

i'm reading the girl with the dragon tattoo. i am in desperate need of sleep.

what i ate:

papaya

grapes

rice, dal, and french green beans

lemon water

what i did:

skating lesson at 10:00

derm appointment at 12:00

sephora

cleaned my room and bathroom

went shopping - new royal blue coat and mustard cardigan - 

finished my essay - crossing my fingers on that one

what i'm looking forward to:

this upcoming week

thanksgiving - family and friends -

hot cocoa - now -

going to the movies more often - alone, preferably -