i wrote a post and then deleted it.
i feel empty and lost.
today i feel hateable.
i feel as though i'm a hateable person.
so, if you hate me today, i understand.
i accept.
i dipped my feet in the fountain today.
then i thought about drunk men peeing in it at night.
drunk men with aids, even.
i wondered if dilute pee could spread aids
so i rapidly withdrew.
thats what she said.