list of love.

right now i love,
the basement dance crew that i pass every night
the light in the third window that lights up every night without fail. in an otherwise empty building
somogyi konyvtar - the small library: the first floor during day when the old people are reading and the third floor at night. little lamps on little tables. otherwise dark
i love to study. everyday at the library. knowledge is empowering.
i love the waffle shop on somogyi utca. chocolate pudding waffles.
the coat lady at the library with curly white blond hair. shes such a dear.
dressing up everyday! its a record.
spar. its a ritual. even if i need nothing. i like to stop by.
the cold, crisp air reminding me that fall is here, christmas will come, and lights will light up my life.
the christmas lights already decorating my room
karate on friday nights with jibo

i am happy to be alive. i am overwhelmed by classes and tests and studying. but i love every minute of it. i dont want anything to pass me by, i dont want to feel like i didnt appreciate the time i had. i want to embrace everything, live now. not for what will be in a couple months or next summer of five years from now. i want to know that i was happy because i allowed myself to be that way. i hope i read this years from now and i am able to see the person i was and compare it with the person i am then. i hope that some parts of me stay just the same.

the light in the third window

the now. not whats to be. just the now. the past the present the future are very much intertwined, no denying that. but whats important is to recognize that what is, is what is. embrace. love. and live.

dear God,
when are you going to stop messing with me?
-liz

denali

when i last spoke of the mountains, of the rivers, of beautiful, rich land, it was not something i had immediate plans to return to. but as summer made its way along and plans were made and remade, alaska is what finally came and what finally stuck.
denali was breathtaking. i became enamored with the land, the raw beauty of it all, with the tundra at high elevations, the grizzlies at lower, the savage rivers. enamored with the beauty in the names- nenana, and teklanika. de'naina. and i wanted nothing but to stay and to live.merely living was enough. every breath, every thought - these were amplified and i felt like i have never felt. i have fallen in love with the mountains, so that even if i tried i could not leave them behind.

summer is in the air. i can smell it. i can feel it.
summer is in the way we live. for three months. uninhibited. truly, a freeing of the soul.
to make plans and to fulfill or not to fulfill. that is the beauty of summer.
for everyone, here and there. all across the world. here is to a fulfilled, happy summer.